Jul 30, 2009

Write Handed

There was a time in my youth when I wanted to be an artist. I suppose it could be argued that I most certainly am one today (perhaps more so than a scientist), but my creative toolbox no longer contains the pen. I abandoned drawing long ago in pursuit of the musical canvas, one that decorates my personal gallery to this day. But at times this gallery is deaf to my acoustics and wishes for a painting outside of the sonic domain. A picture can indeed impress a thousand cliches, but a thousands cliches is at a loss to impress a single picture. For example, there is a mastery that allows a single drawing or painting, such as the Mosa Lisa, to pervade volumes of discourse for centuries. This is more than can be said about many books or works of music.

I don't have the talent, however, to impress an indelible image through the hand, although some talent (albeit to only a modest degree) has leaked into developing images through the lens. Drawing takes a certain preternatural command of the pen that may have more to do with chromosomes than with a waste basket full of attempt. And even those in ownership of such chromosomal fortune must employ diligent refinement. That said, I do think I had a spark of talent years ago, that with a little more flattery, could have smoldered into a brighter flame.

The images below are a selection of drawings that I recently rediscovered upon cleaning out my closet. This is a collection of a lost art, so to speak, most of which was created from the incomplete mind of an adolescent school boy. While they certainly don't feature a command of the pen, I think they do feature an incipient talent in translating the abstract to the actual. Alas, I may never again pick up a pen, perhaps for the better. But if my sonic gallery is ever in shambles, I know just the tool to try for repair.








My New Do-ing!

After four years of being a blogsmonaut, I thought it was about time for a makeover. I hope to tinker further with the template, including an updating photo stream using Picasa, so keep your eye out for further changes to The Astrosite.

Jul 23, 2009

d.J Presents: OceanLab - Sirens Of The Sea


My, my have I been busy lately. I just finished writing and submitting an American Heart Association predoctoral grant (5th grant I've written so far, with a 0-4 record), and I haven't slowed down the sciencing experimentations because 1) I needed preliminary data to bolster my grant, especially since I've only been working with this project for 6 months, and 2) I want to graduate -- now.

But in between paragraphs I worked to ease my mind with a mix featuring the lovely summer-laden soundscapes of OceanLab. All tracks are from OceanLab's (a.k.a. Above & Beyond) latest, fantastically poppy-warm album, "Sirens of the Sea". This was my first attempt at mixing trance, which was WAY more difficult than I expected, especially since I was mixing all tracks from the same artist (albeit from various remixers). My usual progressive house tracks are easier to mix, i think, because there are simply less melodies to weave together, most unlike "Sirens of the Sea".

Anyway, I didn't want to spend too much time on this, as I want to have something to listen to during my months among the summer breeze, which since my grant is now submitted, begin...NOW!

I hope you enjoy "Sirens Of The Sea" as much as I enjoyed making it. The mix is divided into two themes, a lower BPM "Daylight" as a simmer, and the higher BPM "Nightlight" to reach a balmy boil.

Free download: HERE
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Apr 28, 2009

Sphere Of Influence


In 2002 a reclusive Russian mathematician known as Grigori Pereleman solved the Poincare Conjecture. This arcane topological conjecture describes the boundary - or surface - of a three-dimensional sphere within the same limits of a simply connected, compact mathematical object known as a "2-manifold". The brilliance of Grigori's elegant solution used something known as "Ricci Flow" that is often used to describe the movement of heat, and his accomplishment represents a paramount advancement in mathematics. While the significance of a solved Poincare conjecture may evade even the most ambitious armchair professor, the significance of “The Boundary” as a descriptor has corralled and confounded humankind for eons.

If only the boundary of a 2-manifold would have been resolved sooner, perhaps nautical advancement would have ventured Europeans beyond the "flat world" well before 1492, thereby redirecting the course of history. Or maybe the quantum mechanical probabilistic orbits would have already intersected with the Standard Model to provide us with fusion power. Even more exotic are thought experiments testing the synecdochical boundary from neuron to consciousness. Where is it, precisely, that an electrically active neuron bestows the synchrony of "thought"? Where is it, precisely, that my atoms end and the keyboard’s atoms begin? ...Where is it that anything really ends and everything really begins?

Zeno of Elea asked similar questions long ago, questions that would employ mathematicians and philosophers for millennia. And some of these questions remain unanswered despite Grigori’s best attempts. But is it possible that the nature of a boundary is purely semantical? Our touted “intelligence” as a species is attributed by most anthropologists and biologists to our ability to communicate through language. This evolutionary feature, many would argue, was our best weapon against the odds of extinction; yet, the innate irony to this notion is that language itself is a boundary. And a rigid one at that.

The same sphere that Grigori masterfully described may as well be a “circle,” or a “horse,” or a “really complicated thing that I don’t really understand so I’m just going to use it as a metaphor for my next blog entry because I can spin it around to get at what I’m really talking about”: “The Continuum”. The Continuum in which we think-therefore-we-exist is beyond mathematics, beyond science, and certainly beyond language. We may have an arsenal of words at our disposal, ready to strike the beleaguered mystery of the Universe, but their firepower is only as powerful as the boundary by which they describe. That is to say, words can only describe themselves in the context of other words. A lightbulb is an object that emits light, which is the spectrum of radiation that our photoreceptor cells can recognize, which is a continuum of radiation defined by different frequencies, which are periodic oscillations defined by T = 1/f...but do we now know anything more about the nature of a lightbulb at this point? We do only if we understand the definition and the context of all the subsequent words. But even then we find ourselves jumping from one claustrophobic boundary to the next, and so on until the nature of the original observation -- that of the lightbulb -- is lost.

The Continuum, then, is but the elegant nature of “something we really don’t understand,” and so we are left in a padded room with a few toys (i.e. words) to distract us. Unfortunately, the human brain seems incompatible with this maxim, so much so that we often seek answers in black-and-white absolutes and not in the gray honesty of The Continuum. This discontinuous, myopic perspective is ironically provided by words. To bring another philosopher into the discussion, Einstein provided us with possibly the most elegant step beyond The Boundary by leaving us with E = mc^2. This simple equation defines the contiguous nature between energy and mass -- both of which our flesh resonates. Where, precisely, these two entities merge into one is, again, a consequence of semantics.

And so to define something is to surrender its true nature. Just as the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle states that the observation itself of a photon collapses that photon’s wave function, a definition itself of The Continuum collapses the nature of The Continuum. We cannot, however, live completely outside our quarantined existence -- at least not if we want to live in sanity. I am a student. I am a scientist. I am a musician. But one cannot adhere to these semantics as though their nature is static. The words themselves must by dynamic in order to adhere to their intended meaning. What it means to be “student” must be able to adapt, as I may some day still consider myself a “student (of the sciences),” even though I am a professor. And what we know now as “Christian,” or even “right” or “wrong” may change -- and should change -- as knowledge and technology advance our species into the nascent 21st Century. Surely it was once a “curse” of the demons for one to have delusions and hallucinations, whereas now it known as “schizophrenia;” and perhaps one day schizophrenia will be known as an abstraction of one’s dimensional existence that is ill-defined by a 2-manifold in the quantum consciousness of humankind’s realm. It would be black-and-white hubris to think otherwise, as what is true is what is continuous, not what is defined.

Mar 30, 2009

For What It's Worth

I lie awake while viruses tear apart my lungs. It's nothing too severe, yet enough to shackle me in my sheets. And certainly enough to cause complaint. I'm not good with feeling stationary. In fact, the fear of being stationary is the dominating motive behind my chosen career in neurodegenerative research: to provide "movement" to those who have none. I suppose it's a metaphor for movement of the soul. And I do expend my movement with great strides. Yet, ironically, I often pause in appreciation for my dynamic life. Tonight is precisely one of those moments.

The feats of my still-juvenile life are many. Not all have been successes, yet the effort to embark has usually been a success. In other words, when I give an attempt, I may not succeed at the task before me but I'll at least put all I'm worth into trying. Or I won't try at all. The latter has largely been the excuse for me denying my musical talents beyond open-mic opportunities because if I were to do so, it would siphon valuable time from my Ph.D. research -- something that is currently receiving some "all I'm worth" effort. In regards to less gargantuan tasks, it seems that whether I throw a party, make a flier for an event, or update my blog, if I'm not going to allocate appropriate time to "do it right," then I'll wait until I can.

Perhaps being single for over two years is another, more poignant example. Girlfriends are "expensive" in many ways, and if I'm to embark upon obtaining "boyfriend" status, I had better be willing to invest all I'm worth or not invest at all...right? Well....Wrong. Or so recent musings have whispered. The problem with my rather perfectionist behavior described above is that it doesn't move -- it's rigid. Just like a favorite song buried among a mediocre album, sometimes the process of discovery makes even a failed journey worthwhile.

I don't need to fear failure (of a relationship) because there can be so many successful discoveries (within someone else, as well as myself) along the way. Hence, not everything, I suppose, needs to be packaged in a nice and tidy bow in order to be "complete". I write songs that way, no doubt, and I usually write blog entries that way as well (which is why it's been so long since I've properly 'breathed" on this blog). But that isn't the only process from which I can exercise movement. What fantastic women have I been avoiding for nearly two and a half years because I wasn't in the mental place to put all of my efforts into a relationship? The answer is likely many. But alas, I sit here chained to my sheets by coughs and sniffles. And I'm alone. By choice. This is not movement.

Even my ever-evolving, ever-challenging relationship with science gleams with the lure of discovery. Science is never packaged in a tidy bow of perfectionism. Yet, it embodies a relationship that I invested in long ago with little reservation. We may not be together forever -- in fact, we nearly "broke up" permanently a few months back. But the process of discovering this beautiful entity, laden with movement, in itself has fueled my process to discover movement for stationary people. And so to fail is not to stop moving; rather, to fail is not to start moving.

Mar 22, 2009

d.J Presents: Red


This mix was intended as a hypnotic exploration through the psychology of human "interaction" - I feel it's my best thus far. It took nearly six months of patience until I was convinced that I had found the right tracks (or until they had found me) to tell this story. I wanted to find tracks that, while from a different place or time, seemed as though they were made for each other, much like the cosmic coincidences that often spark our human relationships. Accordingly, Red is a story of how we as humans interact, from introduction to embrace. Hopefully the mix will take through this journey.

If under no other circumstances, close you eyes, open your mind, and awaken 70 minutes later.
I hope you enjoy. Dowload Red HERE

(as always, remember to set your music software and/or listen to as a "gapless" album)

Feb 19, 2009

(spacebar)


Wow, this past month has flown by, which I suppose could be interpreted as fast or slow depending on the particular flight vector we're talking about. Satellites fly through the night sky really "fast," but that's relative to a "stationary" observer on the Earth's surface. You would need the Lorentz Transformation (two-dimensional distillate below)
to really understand how "fast" or "slow" something has moved. In the context of this last month, I would say it has flown by at about the speed of a flying bee relative to a flying fly, which brings up another point on eponymous names, like the "organge". Were the early Anglo-Saxons really at a creative loss of what to call "that small thing over there that flies"? And was an orange named after the color or was the color named after the orange? Without boring myself with the etymology of the word, 'orange," I'm willing to bet it was the former since the Anglo-Saxons (being in England, of course) probably didn't even see an orange fruit until the 15th Century brought about feasible global exploration.


While on the subject of potting clay, I don't really have time to update my blog right now, but I certainly hope to soon - i miss it. Look for a post that I've been musing upon about the nature of boundaries and how they describe and dictate our lives - especially the intangible variety. In the meantime, I nabbed the below image from a friend. It speaks to me in so many ways...

Jan 20, 2009

The End of an Error; The Beginning of an Era

An African American hand, that of President Barack Obama, taking oath upon the bible of Abraham Lincoln - a truly American story.

"Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations."

-Barack Hussein Obama II, January 20th, 2009, 44th President of the United States of America